Okay okay I admit I have blog diarrhea right now.

This is what happens when you eat one too many strawberries dipped in chocolate/clotted cream and liquid marshmallows.

Sugar high. Damn hyper.

Plus that 8 cups of (terrible angmoh style) jasmine tea I had to wash down the fats. Yucks.

Oh, and that lovely lovely hazelnut and vanilla coffee, damn how did I live without those for the past 22 years?

I'm so tired but my body won't rest.

Feel like going out for a jog at this insane hour of the morning.

Been online the whole day... between cooking a fried rice dinner for cousins and *attempting* to wash clothes.

Watched too many movies today as well. White Chicks (again), Interview with the Vampire, Cinderella Story and What A Girl Wants (my cousin Jade's DVD collection).

I am officially having a crush on Colin Firth.
*heart goes pip pak pip pak*

Eeps, I can almost see Melinda rolling her eyes at me now. Eh, I can't help it if I find older men attractive okay?

Ryan Phillippe and whatshisname in Cinderella Story is really cute, I admit. But he doesn't make my heart go dub-dub-dub-dub like Colin Firth does. Too pretty boy-lah.

Its not on purpose. Just that the people I tend to like happen to be a good 5-10 years older. Maybe when I'm older the gap will narrow down la. Like now I like guys between 25-30, next time when I'm 25 maybe I'll still like guys between 25-30 leh? Uhh... then maybe when I'm 45 I may still have a thing for guys between 20-35 *traumatised at the thought of it*

Oh yeah. I want to comment on something. If you've ever watched 'Something's Gotta Give', remember that part where Keanu Reeves 'lets Diane Keaton go' because he thinks she'll be happier with Jack Nicholson?

Well I think its bullsh*t.

Eh, guys. You want to 'sacrifice' for love issit? Thats not the way la friend. You love her you stay with her, not tell her to go because you think she'll be happier. You stay and fight for her, like a man. Because if you don't and if you tell her to go, believe me no matter how much she loves you more, she WILL go, because she's convinced that you don't want her. Its a pride thing.

Please give us women more credit than that la. We know what we want, let us make the decision can or not? If she loves you kan, even the bestest man who's like a billion trillion times better than you won't move her, and she'll stay with you. Because you make her happy, because you make her laugh, because thinking of you brings a dopey lovesick smile to her face. Honest.

By trying to be 'unselfish', you're actually being very selfish, you know that? Just because you cannot take competition from someone else, you withdraw and take your leave. You know what, deep down I think its not for your darling's best interest. Its to protect your fragile egos. Because you don't want to lose face. Because you don't want to know someone else is better than you. Because it will hurt if the love of your life leaves you and goes for someone else. And so you give up without a fight, fooling yourself into thinking you're doing a selfless act.

Are you thinking about your lady love's emotions at all? I think not. Are you thinking of how it may be that she actually loves you very much, and now you've gone away to become the one that never was? She may just pine for you forever.

But of course if she meet you again she won't show it la. She has more pride than that. She'll probably go all out to show you what you're missing. Your loss mah. Make you regret a bit.

But deep down inside she'd still feel a stab of pain.

Sigh. Pride.

The greatest of all human weaknesses.