I sprained my back last night trying to lift a drunk friend from the floor so that she could go to the toilet.

It's terribly painful, added to the fact that my back has had more than enough of its share of abuse.

Last night was so bad that I couldn't move after I lied in my bed. That, coupled with some vodka martini that I had made me terribly paranoid that I was going to suffocate and die. And so I texted Bansi at 5am in the morning...

"i think i hurt my back. tried to lift ****** cos she was drunk but fell cos she was too heavy. omg it hurts i cant sleep i think i'm going to die. can u check on me? left door unlocked"

and omigod guess what?

he was here in less than 10 minutes. i felt really bad for waking him up cos i meant him to check on me in the morning before the cleaners come to clean the room. i mean if i die i don't want my cleaners to find me like that lorr...

he came, adjusted my position, put pillows under my neck and back and feet and massaged my back until i felt better and tucked me in when i fell asleep and then went back to his house to continue his sleep. so kamtong, didn't know that i had such a wonderful friend who sayangs me so much.

never in my life would i imagine anyone would do that for me -

wake up, wash, get dressed in less than 10 minutes and walk all the way just to check on me and then spend more than an hour trying to make me feel more comfortable...

and really, i don't know how to thank him enough.

Doreen and I had a chat yesterday when she asked me about the 'status' of our friendship. But what can I say about someone whom I'm so close with that I'd be able to talk about anything with? What can I say about someone I care for so much that he's closer than a brother? What can I say about a friendship so pure that it's beyond attraction and we just like and accept each other as is? What words can describe someone who layans you all the time, makes ginger tea in the middle of the night because you just feel like it, and doesn't say a word about the injury incurred whilst carrying a new wardrobe to your room and apologises that he accidentally got that blood on the wardrobe?

None, really. Some things are just intangible. To attempt to pin it down with a word would do it injustice, because theres that 'something more' factor.

and some things, i guess, are best felt with the heart.