"don't call me. don't write. don't show up in the middle of the night" - Sozzi 'Letting Go'
is what i want to tell just about anyone and everyone.
ESPECIALLY YESTERDAY.
Too many phonecalls. Too many chat windows. Too many people.
I can't take it anymore.
I can't even sit for 10 minutes without someone calling or looking for me. I can't even have a proper shower without missing some sort of call. I need to keep on deleting my messages on my inbox to make way for new ones - and wtf, I've got space for over 100 messages.
I'm drained. Exhausted. With all the company and the whirlwind activities. I've been saying that I want to take a break from this all for months. Yet I haven't even had a single day off on my own.
If only it was that easy... to say no, I don't want to go out today. No I don't want to have lunch/dinner/supper. No I don't want to watch a movie. No I don't want to sleep over tonight. No I don't want to go for a walk. No. I just want to be alone.
But its not. Partly because I don't know how to say no.
I just want to run away from it all. Go off somewhere, maybe to the Aran Islands, book a nice comfy hotel room with my own toilet and most importantly, a bathtub to soak all the stress away. Get myself pampered and massaged for every inch of me. switch off all my phones. go somewhere no one knows me. without telling anyone so they won't know where to find me.
But I can't... not anytime soon anyway. My schedule is packed till the 12th of January.
Can I wait that long?
I know what I want for my birthday.
A spa treat and a cosy little room and a bathtub to myself. And no one else (or maybe one or two friends I'm close to).
And it would just be perfect.
1 comment:
*hugs* Make sure that you really spare a few days after Jan 12th for yourself! Also, you could always cancel one or two smaller events which are around the corner for a quick breather. Saying no is an important thing!
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