Terserahlah pada Tuhan

"Hadapilah dengan senyuman,
Semua yang terjadi, biar terjadi -
Hadapi, dengan tenang jiwa
semua kan baik-baik saja

Bilah ketetapan Tuhan
sudah ditetapkan, tetaplah sudah
Tak ada yang bisa berubah
Dan takkan bisa berubah

relakanlah saja ini
bahwa semua yang terbaik -
terbaik untuk kita semua
menyerahlah untuk menang"

- Dewa "Hadapilah Dengan Senyuman"

I'll listen to this song as I sleep tonight. And I'll try to remember that God has His reasons that I cannot, and never will, comprehend.

But I'll sleep peacefully, because I believe whatever it is, He's looking down at me, and looking out for me.

I feel like praying.

Years and years of doing my own thing, denying God. Denying faith, thinking I could do it on my own. Perhaps I was wrong. But by now I've done so many things I'm not proud of, so many things I shouldn't have done. I'm ashamed of it. I'm ashamed to present my less than perfect self to anyone, much less God.

But -

At the same time I don't regret a thing I've done. Whatever it is, they've made me the person that I am, and no apologies about that. Each experience helped me grow, taught me things I would never have known ofterwise. The people I've met, the people I've grown to love, the people I've outgrown, they all brought out something in me, and in interacting with these people helped me shape my worldviews, and perhaps made me a better person.

And for that I am truly thankful.