Decisions, decisions

It must be the holiday season that makes people feel lonely.

Because this morning, I received a call from someone I used to date, inviting me to Switzerland for a holiday in the winter.

Now its not a policy of mine to go on holidays with ex-boyfriends, particularly ex-boyfriends on business trips, but he said it his friends and their wives (whom I also know and are pretty friendly with) will also be there.

No catch, he said. Except that I'll have to sit through a few dinner dates with them like I used to do while I was dating him (not a problem, the food is usually good, and the conversation very interesting, and they don't mind my having an opinion), and the rest of the time I'll be free to roam around with the women while the men conduct their business.

That left me rather flabberghasted. Like, why me? I thought we broke up liao. Surely he could've found someone older and more sophisticated than I was. But no, he said that of all the women he's ever dated (and thats quite a few, considering he's 15 years my senior), I'm the one that endears myself most to him and his friends *stunned*

The thing is, takut nanti, we'll head straight down the Heartbreak Highway once again.

Still, its a once-in-a-lifetime chance to visit Switzerland without worrying about having to plan my flight, accomodation, everything. Just go and enjoy.

Now if only I can discipline my heart not to fall in love so deeply so easily... but i know i cannot. Because i know if I do, it'll be hell to pay, and no amount of holidays will ever help me get over the hurt.

So I said no.

But he said to think about it. Could it be a reconciliation? Silly girl. I don't think so.