"Huh? Umm... I enjoy my life too much to be tied down to someone lorr..." I let myself tail off.
"If you think that way, you haven't met the right one" she stated matter-of-factly.
Come to think of it, what is the right one? How do you define 'right'? Like, what if you just settle with someone and then the 'right' person comes along? What are you going to do then?
Are you just going to leave the person you're with for the one you feel is 'right'? Or are you going to string the both of them along? Would you rather hurt the one you're with or the one you feel is the 'right' one? Sense of responsibility? What sense of responsibility?
We were discusing fidelity in Sociology just now. And I guess there are no easy answers. There's no real right or wrong in life, is there? Everything is so subjective. On one hand you have something, and on another you have another argument. No wonder sociologists and people who study the human behavior can never agree. I'm getting rather confused myself.
But enough about Sociology.
Have you ever played Final Fantasy? I shall admit that I had never played the game, but I do know a bit of the storyline... You know the sad guy? The one who never lets anyone close to him, for fear that they would hurt him?
Once bitten, forever shy?
It's just so sad... one or two bad experiences can really affect a person's outlook, on love and on life. Jem told me once that you've gotta dance like nobody's looking and love like you're never gonna hurt, but I guess in the end, even he couldn't live up to it.
Growing up scares me. Being 22 scares me. Tears that come because of a fall from a tree dry faster than tears that come from a broken heart. Once you reach your teens you're catapulted into a realm just filled with paradoxes. And it's even worse when you become an adult. Everything comes in shades of grey. Every argument seems to have a counter argument. And the whole issue of love and relationships come up. You're walking on thin ice. You don't want to risk getting your heart broken, and at the same time, you don't want to hurt another person as well...
But like it or not, love hurts. The deeper the love, the sharper the ache. You see the person you love and care for ruin his life on heroin high, you see the friend you think deserves the best in life end up with a jerk, and your daughter ruins her life on a one night stand. And you're just so helpless. You can't do anything except sit and watch and hope that someday a miracle will happen.
But for all the hurt that you have to endure, would you stop caring, stop loving?
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